Wednesday 13th March
Off to work again today. After a slow start to the year it is now really busy so it is great to be back and part of it. I managed to stay a little longer today so although I will be very tired tomorrow I feel I can stretch the working time a bit more. I still have to be careful I know but whilst I feel I can and am enjoying it I will give it more time.
The rest of the day didn't amount to much. I tried to have a sleep this afternoon but although I lay in bed with my eyes closed actual sleep would not come. A quick trip to the doctor's for my injection and the obligatory trip to Tesco and the day is pretty much done.
I am starting to feel a little frustrated at the tiredness not abating at all. This is me not being reasonable as I know really that it could last for a long time and it is only about 10 days since I finished chemo, but I am impatient to get back to normal. I am fed up with evenings spent just trying to stay awake when it is the only quality time I get to spend with Mandy. Roll on the weekend and hope that Mandy dosen't have to work both days again.
Ben is away Friday and Saturday taking part in the final of a national robotics competition at Excell in London. He and nine friends have built a robot at school and got through to the final after a qualifying competition in Birmingham.
Planning a very quiet day tomorrow.
Cheers
Tim
Wednesday, 13 March 2013
Tuesday, 12 March 2013
Walking
Tuesday 12th March
A quiet day as planned. I had a nice long walk though, around 4 miles today in lovely sunshine although it was bitterly cold. I needed to make the walks a bit longer before I start to run again.
I met Mandy on my way home to go to the post office to pick up a signed for cheque from our insurance company for the holiday to New Zealand that we had to cancel. A lesson learnt here, read the small print. We had not noticed that there was a maximum payout for cancellation of £1250 each person so we lost over a thousand pounds and nothing we can do about it.
I had a good long sleep this afternoon but perhaps a little too long as I have struggled to get going again since.
Going to watch Barcelona v AC Milan now. Stunning opening goal by Messi, just like watching Forest !
Cheers
Tim
A quiet day as planned. I had a nice long walk though, around 4 miles today in lovely sunshine although it was bitterly cold. I needed to make the walks a bit longer before I start to run again.
I met Mandy on my way home to go to the post office to pick up a signed for cheque from our insurance company for the holiday to New Zealand that we had to cancel. A lesson learnt here, read the small print. We had not noticed that there was a maximum payout for cancellation of £1250 each person so we lost over a thousand pounds and nothing we can do about it.
I had a good long sleep this afternoon but perhaps a little too long as I have struggled to get going again since.
Going to watch Barcelona v AC Milan now. Stunning opening goal by Messi, just like watching Forest !
Cheers
Tim
Monday, 11 March 2013
Scan date
Monday 11th March
The days seem to be passing quickly at the moment. I went to work today but it still takes a while for me to get going in a morning, so including the half hour drive to get there I did not start until 9.45. I worked till about 12.45 and then had to come home via the supermarket ( Sainsburys not Tesco, I felt like a traitor! ) and Curtainwise in Stratford to pick up some stuff for Mandy. So by the time I got home it was 2.15. A quick cup of tea and off to bed for a needed snooze. Then down to the health centre for 5pm, my new destination for injections instead of at home, and suddenly the day is nearly done.
Working still makes me very tired. Although the effects of the chemo will last for about 6-7 weeks after the last shot, the tiredness can go on for months so I need to get used to it.
I have had the date for my scan come through for the 15th of April. Despite requesting it to be at Coventry and not at Rugby it of course came through as Rugby. Fortunately this afternoon I managed to get it re-arranged for Cov. For some reason the threat of going to have it done privately seems to scare them into doing what you want. Why they can't just do it in the first place I do not know.
So it is scan on the 15th and results on the 25th, so six and a half weeks to wait. I think the time to the scan may race by but the wait for the results might seem like forever.
It is also only 10 weeks to the Tewkesbury Half marathon. This is a scary thought. On the other hand I am not going to rush into training as I will do more damage than good in the long term. And there is no point in getting over the illness in time only to be injured!
Sleep is calling now so I will sign off for today.
Cheers
Tim
The days seem to be passing quickly at the moment. I went to work today but it still takes a while for me to get going in a morning, so including the half hour drive to get there I did not start until 9.45. I worked till about 12.45 and then had to come home via the supermarket ( Sainsburys not Tesco, I felt like a traitor! ) and Curtainwise in Stratford to pick up some stuff for Mandy. So by the time I got home it was 2.15. A quick cup of tea and off to bed for a needed snooze. Then down to the health centre for 5pm, my new destination for injections instead of at home, and suddenly the day is nearly done.
Working still makes me very tired. Although the effects of the chemo will last for about 6-7 weeks after the last shot, the tiredness can go on for months so I need to get used to it.
I have had the date for my scan come through for the 15th of April. Despite requesting it to be at Coventry and not at Rugby it of course came through as Rugby. Fortunately this afternoon I managed to get it re-arranged for Cov. For some reason the threat of going to have it done privately seems to scare them into doing what you want. Why they can't just do it in the first place I do not know.
So it is scan on the 15th and results on the 25th, so six and a half weeks to wait. I think the time to the scan may race by but the wait for the results might seem like forever.
It is also only 10 weeks to the Tewkesbury Half marathon. This is a scary thought. On the other hand I am not going to rush into training as I will do more damage than good in the long term. And there is no point in getting over the illness in time only to be injured!
Sleep is calling now so I will sign off for today.
Cheers
Tim
Sunday, 10 March 2013
3 month anniversary
Sunday 10th March
Today is the 3 month anniversary of my operation to remove the initial cancer lump. I can't really believe how life has changed since that. At the moment everything seems different, I definitely have a different outlook on life. Some things that seemed important and worth worrying about now seem trivial. Mandy only said this morning that she was trying to convince herself that she should not worry so much about work, however this is easier said than done in the wedding dress business as a deadline is definitely a deadline with no room for manoeuvre!
I am determined however to get less stressed about the small things in life anymore. Life really can be too short and it is just not worth it. Get out there and just do it if you want to, make it happen and don't wait for life to come to you.
On a lighter note about my operation there was the following exchange on Facebook a couple of weeks ago between a couple of fellow skittlers who play for other teams. Quick background to this story. As long as you have been following this blog from the start you will know which particular part of my anatomy I had removed. And I have been playing skittles for 26 years now and by my own admission am not bad at it and don't mind telling people so ( I know that's hard to believe! ). First friend upon hearing I was near to being able to play again quipped 'maybe now he is lop sided it will make him a worse bowler'. To which second friend replied 'don't worry his ego will balance him up!'. Needless to say on my first game back I had the highest score of the game ( told you I was not shy about bragging ).
I did go out to watch the runners finish in the Blackminster half marathon this morning. I have to say it was bloody cold but nice to talk to my running friends as it always is. I still get surprised by how many people are reading this. I was talking to a friend called Ade who I had not seen for about 6 months who did not even know about my illness, however he was with another guy who I did not know who when I told Ade what was wrong said 'you must be the guy with the blog. I've been following you on it. Very pleased to meet you'.
I find it quite strange to keep getting complimented on the blog. I have never written anything like this before and don't consider myself any good at it but people genuinely seem to enjoy it. Maybe enjoy is the wrong word, perhaps appreciate instead. At times I find it quite difficult to write but it has helped me no end so please keep reading and comment if you can ( I gather it can be difficult to do or you need a google account or something ).
Cheers for now.
Tim
Today is the 3 month anniversary of my operation to remove the initial cancer lump. I can't really believe how life has changed since that. At the moment everything seems different, I definitely have a different outlook on life. Some things that seemed important and worth worrying about now seem trivial. Mandy only said this morning that she was trying to convince herself that she should not worry so much about work, however this is easier said than done in the wedding dress business as a deadline is definitely a deadline with no room for manoeuvre!
I am determined however to get less stressed about the small things in life anymore. Life really can be too short and it is just not worth it. Get out there and just do it if you want to, make it happen and don't wait for life to come to you.
On a lighter note about my operation there was the following exchange on Facebook a couple of weeks ago between a couple of fellow skittlers who play for other teams. Quick background to this story. As long as you have been following this blog from the start you will know which particular part of my anatomy I had removed. And I have been playing skittles for 26 years now and by my own admission am not bad at it and don't mind telling people so ( I know that's hard to believe! ). First friend upon hearing I was near to being able to play again quipped 'maybe now he is lop sided it will make him a worse bowler'. To which second friend replied 'don't worry his ego will balance him up!'. Needless to say on my first game back I had the highest score of the game ( told you I was not shy about bragging ).
I did go out to watch the runners finish in the Blackminster half marathon this morning. I have to say it was bloody cold but nice to talk to my running friends as it always is. I still get surprised by how many people are reading this. I was talking to a friend called Ade who I had not seen for about 6 months who did not even know about my illness, however he was with another guy who I did not know who when I told Ade what was wrong said 'you must be the guy with the blog. I've been following you on it. Very pleased to meet you'.
I find it quite strange to keep getting complimented on the blog. I have never written anything like this before and don't consider myself any good at it but people genuinely seem to enjoy it. Maybe enjoy is the wrong word, perhaps appreciate instead. At times I find it quite difficult to write but it has helped me no end so please keep reading and comment if you can ( I gather it can be difficult to do or you need a google account or something ).
Cheers for now.
Tim
Saturday, 9 March 2013
Return of sickness
Saturday 9th March
I don't know if it is because I have stopped my anti sickness tablets too soon but I had a return to being sick ( twice ) this morning. First as soon as I got out of bed and again about half an hour later. The rest of the day has been OK but I have resumed the medication for now. I'm still very tired even after a decent sleep this afternoon. I will just have to watch how much I am doing.
Not much else to tell about today. Having had such a bad start just needed to relax from then on.
Cheered up by the footy results this afternoon though, five wins in a row for Forest now.
Today is also the 3 month anniversary of the last time I did any serious exercise. A 9.5 mile run with Stuart from his house in Badsey. In some ways it seems an age ago, on the other hand I can't believe how fast it has gone. In my mind I am ready to start running again but the body is just not there yet. It is going to be a long haul back to any kind of fitness at all.
Going to try to go and watch some friends running the Blackminster Half tomorrow but it is weather dependant ( yes I am a lightweight ) and tiredness permitting.
Cheers
Tim
I don't know if it is because I have stopped my anti sickness tablets too soon but I had a return to being sick ( twice ) this morning. First as soon as I got out of bed and again about half an hour later. The rest of the day has been OK but I have resumed the medication for now. I'm still very tired even after a decent sleep this afternoon. I will just have to watch how much I am doing.
Not much else to tell about today. Having had such a bad start just needed to relax from then on.
Cheered up by the footy results this afternoon though, five wins in a row for Forest now.
Today is also the 3 month anniversary of the last time I did any serious exercise. A 9.5 mile run with Stuart from his house in Badsey. In some ways it seems an age ago, on the other hand I can't believe how fast it has gone. In my mind I am ready to start running again but the body is just not there yet. It is going to be a long haul back to any kind of fitness at all.
Going to try to go and watch some friends running the Blackminster Half tomorrow but it is weather dependant ( yes I am a lightweight ) and tiredness permitting.
Cheers
Tim
Friday, 8 March 2013
Better but still tired
Friday 8th March
Not as quiet a day as I had hoped for today. We actually went and made new Wills today as neither of us can remember where our last ones were. Ben has had to be nice to us for a few days to make sure he got his inheritance!!
Also Mandy's dad and Ruth came to visit for tea. We have not seen much of them during my treatment as they have both had colds. I did get very tired though whilst they were here. I think that yesterday has caught up with me big time so this is going to be a short post tonight.
Up until this evening I have felt pretty good again today. My sister rang earlier and she said that I sounded much more like myself than I have done for quite some time. She said that I had sounded flat before even when I had positive things to say.
That's it for tonight I'm afraid, I need my beauty sleep.
Cheers
Tim
Not as quiet a day as I had hoped for today. We actually went and made new Wills today as neither of us can remember where our last ones were. Ben has had to be nice to us for a few days to make sure he got his inheritance!!
Also Mandy's dad and Ruth came to visit for tea. We have not seen much of them during my treatment as they have both had colds. I did get very tired though whilst they were here. I think that yesterday has caught up with me big time so this is going to be a short post tonight.
Up until this evening I have felt pretty good again today. My sister rang earlier and she said that I sounded much more like myself than I have done for quite some time. She said that I had sounded flat before even when I had positive things to say.
That's it for tonight I'm afraid, I need my beauty sleep.
Cheers
Tim
Thursday, 7 March 2013
Work
Thursday 7th March
I've been to work again today. That's twice this week, I'd better watch out or it might become a habit! In all seriousness though it does me the power of good to be there. Maybe not physically as I am now tired out, but mentally it is great to be thinking about other things and be a bit stretched instead of just vegetating at home.
Managed a short sleep after my injection this afternoon which it turns out I need as I had a phone call from my skittles team saying they were short of players so can I go. I'm too tired really but don't want to let them down so will play as long as the opposition don't mind me bowling off early and leaving. I really can't cope with a 10.30 finish, I would fall asleep in the club.
Hopefully a nice quiet day tomorrow to catch up some sleep.
Cheers
Tim
I've been to work again today. That's twice this week, I'd better watch out or it might become a habit! In all seriousness though it does me the power of good to be there. Maybe not physically as I am now tired out, but mentally it is great to be thinking about other things and be a bit stretched instead of just vegetating at home.
Managed a short sleep after my injection this afternoon which it turns out I need as I had a phone call from my skittles team saying they were short of players so can I go. I'm too tired really but don't want to let them down so will play as long as the opposition don't mind me bowling off early and leaving. I really can't cope with a 10.30 finish, I would fall asleep in the club.
Hopefully a nice quiet day tomorrow to catch up some sleep.
Cheers
Tim
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